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This black soul be thinking.
An essential way to living
Is with bitterness as healing<\/p>\n
Complain if I stop singing.
Black kids get a harsh upbringing.
With bitterness as healing.<\/p>\n
Hard heart, but somehow still believing.
This is my own way of coping
With bitterness as healing.<\/p>\n
Hatred all around, I can\u2019t be hiding.
From Ferguson to Gaza, we all be living
With bitterness as healing.<\/p>\n
As I watch black trans folks dying.
All black lives are mattering
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\nfor good reason. <\/span>My daily life is marked
\nby bigotry in many forms. <\/span>I fight
\nagainst it as much as I’m able, but the constant onslaught makes me feel
\nhopeless sometimes (and yes, this can lead to suicidal and\/or self-harm
\nfeelings too) <\/span>So if I get angry at the
\nworld, so be it; I’d rather that, than being angry at myself. <\/span>If bitterness is a healing for me – if it
\nhelps me face another day then that’s how it will be for now. <\/span>Rage can keep my heart beating. <\/span>And being alive as a visibly bisexual, black,
\ndisabled person is an act of resistance.
\n<\/span>I’m not going to wait until the world changes before I let myself live
\nin it. <\/span>I’ll be wary of folks until I get
\nto know them. <\/span>I’ll roll my eyes at white
\ngay men who say they have an ‘inner black woman’ but then insult people like me. <\/span>And when new LGBT initiatives start without a
\nsingle black or bisexual person involved or targeted, I reserve the right to
\nkiss my teeth, and put my energy elsewhere.
\n<\/span>Let me be bitter, if it means it’s the only way to live.<\/span><\/p>\n
This black soul be thinking.
An essential way to living
Is with bitterness as healing<\/p>\n
Complain if I stop singing.
Black kids get a harsh upbringing.
With bitterness as healing.<\/p>\n
Hard heart, but somehow still believing.
This is my own way of coping
With bitterness as healing.<\/p>\n
Hatred all around, I can’t be hiding.
From Ferguson to Gaza, we all be living
With bitterness as healing.<\/p>\n
As I watch black trans folks dying.
All black lives are mattering
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