{"id":8423,"date":"2018-07-07T13:45:10","date_gmt":"2018-07-07T13:45:10","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/j-applebee.tumblr.com\/post\/175640865613"},"modified":"2018-07-07T13:45:10","modified_gmt":"2018-07-07T13:45:10","slug":"fat-black-nonbinary-i-have-christened-myself-a-monsterpeople","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bimedia.org\/blogs\/2018\/07\/fat-black-nonbinary-i-have-christened-myself-a-monsterpeople\/","title":{"rendered":"Fat, black, nonbinary. I have christened myself a monster:People&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/66.media.tumblr.com\/60f9749ef4141a40bbc39aaca7180e4b\/tumblr_pbi0vaqei31qd3j1wo1_500.jpg\"\/><\/p>\n<p>Fat, black, nonbinary. <br \/>I have christened myself a monster:<br \/>People shrink from me.<br \/>Few want to know me<br \/>Unless it is as a curiosity.<br \/>I am pitied, a target on my slouched back to see.<\/p>\n<p>But in my despair I am somehow free,<br \/>When eyes despise me regardless.<br \/>My head is bare to the heavens,<br \/>An elegant freak without the fuss.<\/p>\n<p>People spitting at me is no less painful.<br \/>Stares from strangers hurt just the same.<br \/>My existence of shame, forever shameful<br \/>Now I have learned to play the \u2018normal\u2019s\u2019 game.<br \/>My freedom stabs bigots like a blade;<br \/>I no longer desperately want to be like them.<br \/>I drop my pretence at longing to be human<br \/>And embrace my monster like they embrace <br \/>Fashion trends.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Fat, black, nonbinary. I have christened myself a monster:People shrink from me.Few want to know meUnless it is as a curiosity.I am pitied, a target on my slouched back to see.But in my despair I am somehow free,When eyes despise me regardless.My head &#8230;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":11,"featured_media":1211,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[303,11,776],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-8423","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-depression","category-mental-health","category-self-hate"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/bimedia.org\/blogs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8423","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/bimedia.org\/blogs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/bimedia.org\/blogs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bimedia.org\/blogs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/11"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bimedia.org\/blogs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=8423"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/bimedia.org\/blogs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8423\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":8424,"href":"https:\/\/bimedia.org\/blogs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8423\/revisions\/8424"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bimedia.org\/blogs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/1211"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/bimedia.org\/blogs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=8423"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bimedia.org\/blogs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=8423"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/bimedia.org\/blogs\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=8423"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}